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REBECCAH DEAN Posts

A Few Songs To Celebrate 20 Years

Yes folks, come April I will have lived in Berlin for 20 years. 20 years! It really seems surreal. I never planned to settle down here. I always thought one to two years Berlin, then back to the US for my MFA in creative writing. But then I applied to two programs and didn’t get in and a few years became more than a few years, then many years. The reasons to stay grew and the reasons to go back became less and less. Berlin was such an insanely cheap city for so long, a city for the lost, for…

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Richard Brautigan Used To Prop Open My Window

Dear Phantom Reader, As I know you are also an avid reader, I’m sure this story is familiar to you: You hear a tip somewhere from someone about a book that sounds interesting so you pick up a copy of said book only to later toss it on the pile of other such similar books that you will read one day–or not. I do this all the time. Mostly I order these books I hear about on podcasts or read about in articles or see mentioned by a writer whose work I admire from used bookstores in the US. Since…

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A Few Things I’m Listening To These Days

I don’t know if it’s dreary January Berlin (where, oh where, has the little sun gone, oh where, oh where can it be?) or just my general state of mind, but I’ve been listening to a lot of kind of lowkey stuff these days. Here are a couple of my favs for your listening pleasure. Love Jarvis Cocker’s voice and Chilly Gonzales has been a go-to for a while now. I was actually supposed to perform this Patricia Barber tune, but I went to Cali instead when the performance was taking place (an accident, but not such an unfortunate one,…

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5 Goals For 2019

Dear Phantom Reader, So a new year is upon us. What are your plans and New Year’s resolutions? As for me, I thought up five goals for this year last night through a fog of congestion from the nasty cold I’ve been fighting since the end of December. Here goes: Rebeccah M. Dean’s 5 Goals For 2019 Goal 1: Complain more Tis true. There’s not enough complaining in the world and I plan to do my part to remedy this dire lack in the year to come. I will complain when lines are too long. When lines are short, I…

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A Little More Success, A Little Less Failure

Dear Phantom Reader, Hard time finding words. Working often ten hour days for past two months writing EFL lessons for school in Vietnam. Good in some ways because had hole in my bank account so deep I could have struck oil if lucky, but almost never lucky. Poor me! (Did win pair of show chickens at 4-H raffle in 3rd grade. RIP, Everett and Helen. Best. Win. Ever.) Bad and other ways because leaves far too little time for creative writing and miss it so. Read through stories and worlds are so far away, flaws screaming out but no real…

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“To Possess Nature” Published In Verdad

My short story “To Possess Nature” was just published in Verdad Magazine. Yeah! I planned to do another goofy mock interview like I did for my story published Sixfold, but I’m too crazy busy these days for that much zaniness. I’m working on a big project writing online EFL lessons for primary and secondary students in British English. Like I’ve written here before, I write so much in British English these days my computer is convinced I’m English. It somehow set itself to BE, so when I’m writing favorite it automatically changes it to favourite or puts those angry red…

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How To Fit In In Kreuzberg and Neukölln

I thought I’d share with you why I sometimes fantasize about moving to the country or at least Charlottenburg with this goofy video. Here are some visuals for what I describe in the video (I literally just had to walk down my block to find these things and I didn’t include every picture I made of the evidence…) Here’s a slime covered piece of furniture, now beautifully decorated with old pizza boxes. Hurrah! Wow, what a nice new touch. Instead of cabinets or dressers without drawers, why not provide a drawer without a cabinet or a dresser? Brilliant! Yes, this…

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A Kick of Classical

Although I listen to all kinds of music, a large part of my heart will always belong to classical. Of course, this isn’t the case for a lot of people, and here’s my theory why. Reason one: Most people haven’t been exposed to much classical music aside from Mozart kitsch, bombastic Beethoven, or Christmas-time Tschaikowsky. Reason two: The class connotations are off putting. Yep, classical music is most certainly a conservative pursuit for the upper middle class on up, and most people listen to classical music for a sense of aristocratic edification, particularly in the US. Because my love for…

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Boring, Boring/Long Live The Tree Root Fungi!

Dear Phantom Reader, As I’ve sure you’ve noticed, I haven’t been around here for a couple of weeks (did you miss me?). The reason, unfortunately, is boring: Lots of boring work because I need boring money because I have a boring hole in my bank account. You can’t live off credit in Germany (thank god) so all these boring needs mean taking on lots of boring work. Ugh. Reality does indeed blow. All this boring work has left me with little energy to do any of my own creative work (i.e. fiction writing, which I’m ambitious about, and music, which…

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